Most of the times that I’ve set goals for myself, I’ve failed to reach them. I wanted straight A’s through high school. Failed. I wanted to be part of the basketball or football team. Failed. I wanted to go to UCLA and be a Economics Major and go into the medical field. Failed. I wanted to be a doctor. Failed. I wanted to be ahead of the curve, be popular and live a rich life throughout college. Definitely failed.
I don’t regret most of my failures. To be honest, most of the goals were pretty out of reach. Taking AP classes during sophomore year really didn’t help. Slacking off too much and not caring enough for my future didn’t have a positive effect either. But I learned from my mistakes and have been trying to participate and get as much out of life as I can as I shed away my shyness.
This is where Eric Banks comes in. He’s not the “social, fearless” side of me. He’s the guy who has achieved all my goals. He’s the person that I wanted to be. He goes to UCLA, is acing all his classes, drives a BMW M3, and has a full ride scholarship because he plays Wide Receiver for the Bruins. A little farfetched? Yup.
When I started to make this character, I only thought this: if I was to be jealous of anyone in this world, if I wanted to envy anyone, why not a person who has been in the same situation as me, but looked at the brighter side of life? Why not envy someone that constantly achieves all the goals I set and make the best out of the worst situations? Plus, It’d be easier to be jealous of this person because he’s essentially me, and because of that, I can self actualize, and become the man that I wanted to be.
So, I dedicate this page to you, Eric Banks. The man that Bikran Sandhu could’ve been. The man that always lives life to the fullest, and doesn’t worry about the little things. The man who has everything, lives his dream, but is ultimately, just a figment of my imagination…